Thursday, August 18, 2011

Pillow talk



The other night while laying in bed we reminisced about the excitement of seeing each other when we had first met, waiting in anticipation for our first "real" kiss, the sudden flow of adrenalin every time we received a text from the other. It wasn’t that long ago that his love notes, written on old torn up pieces of cardboard, sent a surge of tingles erupting within me, or when stealing a kiss on the porch of brookside made us soar into a high that should have been illegal. At times it feels like a dream. But would I trade that for the serenity of falling asleep every night with your arms around me tight? Trade it for the confidence, trust, and support we recieve from each other as we battle through this sweet, but sometimes unforgiving world? Trade it for the comfort and love that comes when i have broken down completely with uncontrollable feelings of failure and dissapointment? If I could interchange another first glance, first touch, first hello for a second of what we have now, I would not take it.

It is funny, and sometimes surreal how love effects us, as humans. The first initial jolts of "love" (more like infatuation), and then the deep, sometimes hard, exhausting love. What I would not do for Ben.

In the 5 and a half years of being with you, I still feel those initial tingles but in a much deeper, more meaningful sense. I am deeply, madley, insanely in love with you. I really would not ever trade a day of what we have now to a day of what we had then.

8 comments:

Ali Fox said...

awww this is the cutest post. I can't wait to be able to have pillow talk with Brock! AHH can I get there already!? :) We got lucky with those two Beeson boys! :) Miss you! Can't wait to see you in a few weeks!

Melody said...

That is a good way to say it all. I feel the same way about Jason. We're lucky girls. :)

Darren and Brandi said...

Well put. It's fun to think about those days when you used to get butterflies when they would look at you... and at times I miss it. But you are right, love grows. Having what we have now with our boys is worth more than anything!

Tyson and Lana Hansen said...

You should write a book! You're good! I LOVE that it really does explain us humans :)

Amanda said...

That is so adorable. You and Ben give me hope :)

Snarrs said...

such a good post and put so well! i miss you!

Erin + Geoff said...

yesterday was our 3 year anniversary and reading this post of yours today reminds me of how i was feeling yesterday and what i was thinking about.. you are so right! miss you guys!

Holden and Audrey said...

wow Mel, 2 years of school together and I had no idea you were so poetic! I love the post, it's very sweet and very well said!

: . i carry your heart with me, i carry it in my heart . :
-e.e. cummings

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