Tuesday, July 6, 2010

ah life..

Warning: long blog with lots of blabbing.. I have decided to make my blog like a journal. I used to write in my journal every single night from 6th grade all the way through sophmore year of college. Once I got married I stopped. So, this is a way for me to sit down and write out my feelings. To figure out who I am and where I want to go.

life is good. Sometimes it can throw curve balls but then other things turn around. Iv liked having time to sit down and figure out who I am and what I want to accomplish. I did not have a lot of time to think of things like this before because I was always preoccupied with other things. I have realized that I am a much stronger person then I think I am. I have learned to humble myself, and I am learning to be less critical and hard on myself as well. Lately I have been thinking about ways that I can progress in my life. Here is a list of things I have been wanting to accomplish sooner then later,

-I want to spend my time being productive.
-I want to notice the good things in people and not the bad.
-I want to better myself and make myself stronger so that I feel more confident in starting my family.
-I want to keep in better contact with the people I love.
-I want to start playing the guitar again. I want to sing again. I want to dance again, and share those talents with others.
-I want to find some new hobbies. Maybe (I can't believe I am saying this) sewing, and tennis?
-I want to start exercising regularly (that always makes my day better).
-I want to become a better friend to people. I want to reach out for help when I need it and not be to proud to do so.
-I want to have a stronger foundation in the gospel. I want to learn more about the scriptures and about the history of the church.
-I want to be myself again. For the past two years I Have not been the fun spontaneous person I used to be. This summer I have notice myself becoming that person again and I am loving it. It is crazy what other peoples opinions and actions can do to change someone.

To achieve these "wants" I am going to start reading preach my gospel every day, and I am going to study my scriptures instead of just reading them.
I am going to start finding some new songs I want to learn and the guitar, and maybe start composing some songs again.
I will start calling the ones I love more often so I know what is going on with them, and I can build stronger relationships with them.
I have already figured out a lot of the reasons why I have changed my personality so much and I will continue to let it change back to how it used to be.
I am going to keep my thoughts around positive things and I will not dwell on the negative. I am going to read "The Secret", its a book that one of the guys who sells out here swears by. Its all about positive thinking.

I figure that while I'm out here with ben, instead of wasting my time I should be growing and learning. This is one thing that I have always loved. I love to learn. So now I am going to focus on learning more about myself and what I need to do to become a better person.

Sorry this is such a long post. I have never written a post like this in the past, but I am sure this will not be the last.


Darren and Brandi said...

I love posts like this. Good for you. It always feels good to reevaluate things in your life and turn some things around. Darren and I have started doing preach my gospel together for our couples study every day and it's been great. I'm sure you'll enjoy it. I can't wait for you guys to be up here! I'm sure I'll be crazy busy with school, but we'll find time to do stuff. Hope your summer is great down there! Have fun!

Jeremy and Sam said...

Mel, I loved reading this. Thank you for posting it! It definitely makes one think about priorities and what is really most important in our life.

Michelle said...

Dude, Melody... This blog post was very motivating for me. Hope you are doing great! Miss seeing you at school!

Wes and Lindsey Cardall said...

Melody, you're awesome! Now I want to go make a list of things to improve my life!

Tyson and Lana Hansen said...

Ya just like everyone else I really liked this post-it makes me want to be better too! I use my blog as a journal too. It's a good way to let people know what your up to but also for you to look back at what you've accomplished!

Jake and Jenna said...

i loved this melody.. seriously. i think everyone who reads your blog can totally relate to that. i have a similar list, and it's a little overwhelming at times to know that i have a lot of things to work on. but in the end, all we can do is our best. i'm proud of you! hopefully we'll get to see you guys sometime soon. we talk about you a lot and miss you always. much love.

Parker and Brittney said...

im glad u know what im going through day in and day out. It takes a strong woman to do what we do haha..where ru living again? what do u do all day? any girls to hangout with?
miss u too!

Linda said...

Hey Melody ~
I'm sure glad you guys are in Denver this summer. We'll be there in a week and can't wait to see our baby Rock Star plus Rob & Jessie of course! It's good to have some time to kick back, enjoy it :)

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